Everyone can laugh or try to say I told you so, but to clarify all this
bru-ha ha about my posting and not understanding the rules and running away
and resenting someone pointing out obvious rules...................(before I
slip back behind the shrubbery to get my head and ass wired together again),
I KNOW the rules. I was severely reminded about them a few times when I was
a newbie to the newsgroup when I accidentally wrote in capitals. (I
capitalize to emphasize my tonal inflections if you haven't figured that out
by now with how I write, and by the way, I talk like I write. I'm fulla
words)

I tried to explain that my feelings were hurt. Not because I was reminded
about the rules, I actually appreciated the explaination. I am an
explaination kinda person. I'll tell you why if you give me a chance in real
life. I am an explanitory kinda person. It's who I am. Because I am an only
child and always had to give an explaination. In detail.

I was hurt because I was accused of being selfish. If I misunderstood the
accusation, then I was wrong. My feelings lately have been on edge. And I
tend to care way more than I should. But I can't change the spots on this
leopard. Or maybe it's the stripes on this zebra grass...........ANYWAY, I
have read all the responses and comments and miscontruing and
misunderstanding and misreading and I will say this. I changed my format and
font because I had no idea that posting in Comic Sans MS was taking up so
much band width. I had no idea. I posted the JPG because I was trying to
share and be nice. I have also in the past told everyone on the newsgroup if
they wanted to put an actual picture to my words and descriptions to e-mail
me personally because my e-mail address isn't a mystery. It's never been a
mystery. I've always had it right out there for anyone and everyone to see
and respond back to me with.

I am a giving person. I am a good person. I never said you accused me of
being a bad person, I just said I was hurt because I was hinted at being
selfish and told it might be fun following me around a buffet. You might
actually enjoy following me around a buffet. I don't know. If that's your
humor relief, have at it. I made the sarcastic remark about the anal thing
because I felt I was being chided a bit harshly about a simple thing. Just
asking me to not post the JPG would have been good, and the explaination of
why would have been great. Saying I was selfish was a bit too far, but
you're entitled to call me or anyone else anything you want to. It's the
beauty of this newsgroup. It's not censored. I love that. It makes me feel
that I'm still sorta free and have free speech.

The trowel and other things was my way of being "funny". I am not running
away or leaving because of you, Janet hit it on the head. Sometimes I just
get overwhelmed with my life and all the soap opera crap (and everyone has
it, to more or less degree's, just ask IGROWROCKS sometime about the drama
in my life, it's truely amazing, she ended a friendship of one year with me
because she was appaled at the "crap that you say is happening to you") I
hated to lose her friendship but sometimes they pass by briefly. she
bestowed something to me that still means the world to me and I love her for
it, even if she doesn't speak to me or aknowledge me anymore. You move on.
And that's what I'm gonna do. Move on. I can't stay away from this
newsgroup for too long because I really care and miss the people here. I
just need to pull back and try to get my life together. It was just timing.

And that's all I have to say about that. From here, take it where you will.
I know the rules, I broke some of them, but like I said, I'm grown and
sometimes I screw up. I still won't apologize, nor should anyone feel they
have to because I don't expect it. I wouldn't judge you. But that's just
me. This gardening chatroom is what keeps me informed, and reminds me that
we all share something with each other no matter where we are, be it
apartment, house, farm or rooftop walk up. Scotland or New Zealand, Texas
or Eastern Tennessee or Canada. We garden. We share that commonality and
that makes us kindred spirits who believe in horticulture in whatever form
it takes with the individual. I always said that gardeners are basically
honest and giving and good people because we garden and keep things living,
or learn from mistakes. That's all part of life after all.

I'll see ya'll soon. (and no this didn't count LOL )

madgardener